Thursday, June 20, 2013

Today I fear

It grips tightly almost suffocating me.

I fear the judgement of my parenting by others.
I fear letting my husband down.
I fear my children rejecting me.
I fear hurting friends.
I fear causing a soul to choose Hell over God.
I fear the size of this house, as if it will swallow me.
I fear enjoying work more then my children.
I fear Mania and depression both equally.

Oh yes, today fear grips ever so tightly.

God is enough.  I know.  But sometimes, today, life seems bigger then Him.  A foolish thought.  A foolish fear, but none the less this is where I am.

My prayer for today is that as the day ends and I close my eyes I would do so living true the words of Isaiah, a man who was steadfast in his trust of the Maker of the heavens and the earth.

Steadfast of mind You will keep in perfect peace, because he trust in You.
~ Isaiah 26:3